Sunday, July 23, 2017, 22:52
“Bill” is a hard-headed man, he won’t listen to anyone’s advice to slow down and to take it easy, he is often an abruptly rude interruption to the day of all who are around him at any given time. I don’t know very many people who are fond of “bill”.
I know a few people like “Bill” and I stay clear of them mostly because I have my own problems that get in the way of my progress, and becoming upset with someone else for the actions of another is not my choice way to exert my energies.
I have seen myself as “Bill” from time to time; being difficult and unnecessarily crass, but not on purpose, at least I don’t think so. I do know that in the moment, I didn’t want to stop, I wanted people to have a glimpse of what it was that I was feeling right then, I won’t say that it was wrong, but it wasn’t all that right, for certain.
Functionally, I am not an ass, I’m pretty amiable in most cases, except for when I come into the area of discussing PTSI with someone who is going to try to “feel” what it is that I am going through. I always think to myself: “How dare this person to assume to have this power?” I’m hurting in ways that I cannot justify being used as a way of assuming that a stranger could know me. There is no way that I can allow myself, o even other persons who are being attacked by this internal injurious monster to be belittled by someone who has no reason to care about their lives and their safety.
I see it as it is; a page of data, numbers to be calculated and recorded into an algorithm that has no human identity, no human feelings, and no way to be treated. I can only imagine the streaming numbers that I must look like to this person. Not a human, not a person, just a moving page of digitized information!
Do I sound angry here? Well, that’s good, because I am!
I don’t like the issuance of unexpected events that come from PTSI aftermath, and I can’t explain how it truly feels to someone who has never dealt with the situation as I have. To someone who is dealing with it, however, that’s a different deal altogether! They can place themselves into a picture that I can draw with my words, or even with my lack of words. Persons who have been close to the edge of self-destruction can damned-well understand what it means to crush their identities to hide the abnormalities of PTSI from even their own senses.
I assume that there are some psychiatrists who read what we write on this site, so to them, don’t take it personally that I find your profession to be full of its own self-righteousness, because I have the records to back up that claim, while not a single one of you has a record of healing a single person, EVER!
“Bill” can be absconded from his freedom,(at least temporarily!)
This loss of freedom will be labeled as a “safety” measure” for the person and the public. Officially it is called being “psychologically arrested” under the Baler act. A law that says that for personal or public safety, a person may be instituted against his or her will, t be evaluated for possible mental abnormal thoughts and or actions.
Before the Baker Act was signed into law by the Florida Legislature in 1971, it was fairly easy to commit someone to a state mental hospital.
All it took was for three people to sign an affidavit and turn that into a county judge. Children as young as 12 could be sent to a mental facility and share quarters with adults.
Recognizing the inhumanity of Florida’s archaic mental health laws, which had been on the books for almost 100 years, state Rep. Maxine Baker introduced a bill that would come to be named after her.
Steps have been emplaced to protect the civil liberties of persons from wanton persecution and captivity, but there are still many instances of abuses, especially once an individual is on the inside!
I don’t trust the process, I think the holes that have been exposed as in any other laws on the books, are still diametrically oppositional to actual protections, and more to the disadvantages of the individual.
If you’ve ever been on that end of the stick, it probably doesn’t surprise you that I say the process is flawed. Self-check-in is slightly different, but still, you’re on the inside, and the doctor may not be such a cool person after he or she has you inside the ward.
I reference my experiences as I trudge through the field of mud that PTSI can make of my brain from time to time. This to me, is a reminder that memories make this condition possible. Minus memories, there is no emotional connection to make our minds go into overdrive!
I am aware of me, I am not disordered enough that I can’t understand the right or the wrong of me and the things that I say or that I do, so I don’t need to be re-driven over that old road! I think about the person who is thinking that there is no way to find some peace, and no relief to be found in the drugs that don’t seem to work for them, so that person, steps off of the edge. Jumps into the unknown of the oblivious arms of death; I was there! There are times even now when I am still standing close to that edge, I’m just not considering jumping off right now.
Wholeness is why we are all troubled by PTSI events. If we were not whole, this obtuse character wouldn’t exist, by now, it would have fallen through one of the holes we would have in our memories.
Maybe PTSI and other emotional injuries are the “extra weight” we’ve accumulated over our lifetimes, and we need to find a way to lose that weight. Maybe we need to find an emotional “diet” to get rid of the pressure of carrying those dreadful memories.
Types of PTSD and Diagnosis
by National Center for PTSD
December 12, 2006
There are five main types of post-traumatic stress disorder: normal stress response, acute stress disorder, uncomplicated PTSD, comorbid PTSD and complex PTSD.
Normal Stress Response
The normal stress response occurs when healthy adults who have been exposed to a single discrete traumatic event in adulthood experience intense bad memories, emotional numbing, feelings of unreality, being cut off from relationships or bodily tension and distress. Such individuals usually achieve complete recovery within a few weeks. Often a group debriefing experience is helpful. Debriefings begin by describing the traumatic event. They then progress to an exploration of survivors’ emotional responses to the event. Next, there is an open discussion of symptoms that have been precipitated by the trauma. Finally, there is treatment education in which survivors’ responses are explained and positive ways of coping are identified.
Acute Stress disorder
Acute stress disorder is characterized by panic reactions, mental confusion, dissociation, severe insomnia, suspiciousness, and being unable to manage even basic self-care, work, and relationship activities. Relatively few survivors of single traumas have this more severe reaction, except when the trauma is a lasting catastrophe that exposes them to death, destruction, or loss of home and community. Treatment includes immediate support, removal from the scene of the trauma, use of medication for immediate relief of grief, anxiety, and insomnia, and brief supportive psychotherapy provided in the context of crisis intervention.
Uncomplicated PTSD involves persistent reexperiencing of the traumatic event, avoidance of stimuli associated with the trauma, emotional numbing, and symptoms of increased arousal. It may respond to group, psychodynamic, cognitive-behavioral, pharmacological, or combination approaches.
PTSD comorbid with other psychiatric disorders is actually much more common than uncomplicated PTSD. PTSD is usually associated with at least one other major psychiatric disorder such as depression, alcohol or substance abuse, panic disorder, and other anxiety disorders. The best results are achieved when both PTSD and the other disorder(s) are treated together rather than one after the other. This is especially true for PTSD and alcohol or substance abuse. The same treatments used for uncomplicated PTSD should be used for these patients, with the addition of carefully managed treatment for the other psychiatric or addiction problems.
Complex PTSD (sometimes called “Disorder of Extreme Stress”) is found among individuals who have been exposed to prolonged traumatic circumstances, especially during childhood, such as childhood sexual abuse. These individuals often are diagnosed with borderline, or antisocial personality disorder or dissociative disorders. They exhibit behavioral difficulties (such as impulsivity, aggression, sexual acting out, eating disorders, alcohol or drug abuse, and self-destructive actions), extreme emotional difficulties (such as intense rage, depression, or panic) and mental difficulties (such as fragmented thoughts, dissociation, and amnesia). The treatment of such patients often takes much longer, may progress at a much slower rate, and requires a sensitive and highly structured treatment program delivered by a team of trauma specialists.
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We have work to do, notwithstanding a lot of searching inside of our own self-motivational ideals and principles. Maybe we need to let go of being afraid of letting some of the steam go, letting some of what others might call a “monster” before our own memories eat us alive.
Even with holistic options available, (many of which I have used!) I still have the memories, and they don’t always want to be chanted down.
I have the face of the evil Harlequin chasing me in some of my episodes. Screaming and chasing me to let the “Event” take place differently, I run, I hide, I fight as strongly as I can.
I have PTSI and I don’t like it, but you know what? I’m working on that part of it; like myself, instead of hating PTSI! I hope I’m not the only one.
Find peace, find harmonious accord within yourself, and be aware.