Tuesday, March 6, 2018, 1850 Hrs.
Emotions: (a natural instinctive state of mind deriving from one’s circumstances, mood, or relationships with others)
I put this out here first, because this is why we’re here, and this is why we share and arrive to join in conversations which for the most part are painful. So, I ask the hard questions to myself, and even though I do not get the answers, the power to ask is making this condition just that much more easy to deal with, (at least, some of the time!)
I wonder, has anyone else here ever thought about what it is we mean when we talk about our “minds”?
- the element of a person that enables them to be aware of the world and their experiences, to think, and to feel; the faculty of consciousness and thought.
- a person’s intellect.
- a person’s attention
Nowhere I have searched so far, has a description of the mind being something of a physically constructed object. It is not seeable as is my brain or my heart. The mind is such that it is more a feeling of how our brains process the information into a usable form for us to understand.
Seeing that the mind has no physical structure, I have asked several psychiatrists, how it is that the mind can be injured, without a physical injury to explain what has happened?
Shooting forward, I know that this question is less important to one who is going through the imagery of hallucinations, and fearful thoughts that are so very real at the times that they intrude into the life of that person. For me, it is one of the most difficult events to live through and the possibilities make it difficult to live with.
I face the stranger as I see myself now, every day of the year. I never see the familiarity of the person I grew up with. But now, I am aware that familiarity does not have to always be a part of the day of my life all the time, but it would sure as hell be better than never seeing it there. I get tired of trying to figure whether or not the same me I see is going to screw with my life and mess up my progress.
But even with this angering and uncertain situation with which I deal, I have hope for a future where I will recognize and I will like the reflection that I see, and I will feel confident of its being the helpful entity that I used to be able to depend on even in the hardest times I’ve been through.
Here’s the catch.
All of us can power through this dilemma we are faced with daily. The power to defend oneself is not lost, it’s just not a part of what I get to see on a daily basis, and I could be wrong here, but I get the feeling that many others feel this way as well as do I.
Peaceful moments can become peaceful minutes, hours, days, months, and years. But how to get back to that point, Let’s not forget that there is a multitude of reasons why and how have any of us, have become imbued with this emotionally infectious illness, but the treatments that can heal us, have to be at least as numerous. Finding the one to work for me, might not be the answer for the next person, but you know what, if I hear of anyone who has found some relief, it gives me a true sense of belief that it can happen for me as well, and this is the foundation we are all seeking to find: a foundation, something stable to stand on, to give us some support.
I’ve found rocks here at www.ptsdchat.org and they have names. Names like Tim, Sue, Natalie, Sarah, L.J. Susan, Debra, Kate, Paul, Naj, Journey, and so many others, and I apologize to anyone who feels left out because it is most definitely not intentional that I have done so!
We’re going to get to the day when emotional illnesses can be removed no matter how they got started. Powerful people stand ready to place themselves in the way of the speeding train of their own pan, in order to try to help others, and if I can be considered to be one of these people, then my journey through this dark and often frightening valley, is well worth the efforts!
Love must be built, on one foundation, and we’re certainly doing our best to see that this happens. I am humbled to be a part of this special group of people!